I feel the same about my wife...
I feel the same about my wife. I would love to be with the Lord, but for her sake I want to stay a bit longer. We both feel that way. I also want to remain for the sake of our children, a couple of whom have not accepted the Lord yet. I want to live an exemplary life to encourage them to turn around like I turned around for my folks.
As a missionary to Nepal I also want to remain to help them, but at 87 I don't think I have too much more time, so I am trying to find some friends to whom I can turn over these tasks.