And then there was what...
Illustration
And then there was what I remember as one of the worst nights in my life. It was 3 a.m.,
and I hadn't slept. My prayers had become simply "Why God, why don't you heal me?" I
went down into the living room and curled up in a ball on the floor. I cried for a while,
but then I seemed to run out of tears. I can't say I felt much of anything. Perhaps my
despair led me beyond feeling. Then something amazing happened. I'll give God the
credit, although it wasn't anything supernatural. There was no light from heaven or angel
at my doorstep. The Earth didn't move.
Something did move, however, but it was inside of me. For some reason (again, I'll blame God for this) I stopped thinking about the "Fearful Unknown." Instead I asked myself, "What do I know?" That night, I could be sure of two things: God loved me more than anything, and I had MS. Well, what would God be doing for someone he loved so much who had MS? I began to make a list: God would make him aware of the incredible blessings and beauty that surrounded him in this world, God would open up the scriptures in a new way, God would surround him with the love of friends and family, God would invite him into a new and closer relationship, God would support him and help him through the day.... As I made my list, I began to smile. I realized that God had been doing all of these things! While I prayed to God and called upon God to act, God was doing what I needed most. The worst night of my life became one of the best! (From Pastor Walter Hermanns, in his blog, http://waltersmusings.blogspot.com/ -- entry of 2/4/06)
Something did move, however, but it was inside of me. For some reason (again, I'll blame God for this) I stopped thinking about the "Fearful Unknown." Instead I asked myself, "What do I know?" That night, I could be sure of two things: God loved me more than anything, and I had MS. Well, what would God be doing for someone he loved so much who had MS? I began to make a list: God would make him aware of the incredible blessings and beauty that surrounded him in this world, God would open up the scriptures in a new way, God would surround him with the love of friends and family, God would invite him into a new and closer relationship, God would support him and help him through the day.... As I made my list, I began to smile. I realized that God had been doing all of these things! While I prayed to God and called upon God to act, God was doing what I needed most. The worst night of my life became one of the best! (From Pastor Walter Hermanns, in his blog, http://waltersmusings.blogspot.com/ -- entry of 2/4/06)
